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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Fight On? @ 3:23 PM

You know it's not good when you start using the same metaphors for your relationship as you would for a war. But I have an honest question, really...

At what point does it become totally pointless to keep fighting for your relationship? Would you consider it foolish to fight on even after it felt like your partner had stopped long ago? Do you let go and let your intentions carry you somewhere where you'll be happy...or do you hold tenaciously to your vows - and your pride - remembering what you promised in the beginning when your heart was in your eyes? Do you marshal your strength and act on those convictions?

I think it's chancy sometimes. A few weeks ago, I was sick of taking it lying down, so I stood up for my relationship. I drew my sword and went to battle against all the encroaching monsters trying to destroy it.

Only to have my partner tell me that what I did was hopelessly, irreversably wrong...and that she was leaving me over it.

Well, she didn't leave. But she never told me I was right to do the *right thing*. I've watched her since that day. She's slipping away, ever so slowly. She flirts more and more with everyone else. She takes more and more racy pictures for the world to enjoy. Her conviction in holding us together is weak, ebbing.

I feel like I'm all alone in this relationship.

It's really bothering me. What is the honorable thing to do in this instance? How do you even cling to honor when the person you've built your life with was never honorable to begin with?

When do you stop being honorable and start being a fool for trying to stop your ship from sinking?





amanda cassandra


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