silencesweaty
The last few weeks have changed me pretty significantly. Some ideas of mine about how the universe works have been turned on their head, others changed just a little. Nothing violent or catastrophic has happened to my ideas, though. I think everything I took for granted is still pretty intact, but as my life changes and is constantly reshaped to fit circumstances, my ideas change a little too.
I've come to realize one important thing...and that is for whatever reason, my totally selfish desires, at least really big ones, hardly ever get realized right away. I'm still trying to figure out the difference between the "big" ones and the "small" ones, but...yeah. In shifting my perspective and seeing the world in a more positive, less me-centric way, the world has *become* more positive. I always have positive experiences now, and I love it. With people, with situations, everything. I've come to a much greater love for myself and for other people, and in shifting my focus away from the negative, the negative has diminished. It's sort of strange how true it's all become.
Now I find myself thrilled by the idea of going to work at a job I love. I wake up every morning, thankful already about it, thankful about lots of things. I'm finding a lot more to be thankful about, too, and I can honestly say that experiences that I've had with HR people have never been this good.
My wants have changed a little, too. Oh, I still want the same things, somewhere inside of me. And I still believe I'm on my way to them. But for now, I've learned to be thankful for the little stuff, and if tomorrow someone gave me a steady, forty hour job that fit my skills and a clean, safe apartment, I'd be tickled. If someone gave me a chance at a job I've always wanted to try, I'd be thrilled to pieces. At the moment, Anna and I have a place to stay. I wake up every day thankful for that.
I can't wait for tomorrow, because I don't know what amazing thing will be delivered to me. Isn't that strange?
