Sugarcult
thoughtful as usual
I haven't always gone by Amanda Cassandra. I was just "Mandy" like my whole life. Mandy is a cute name, I guess...and an easy, comfy name. It isn't assertive, though. It doesn't demand attention.
I think that's why I used to be so happy with my name. I was always a rather understated kind of girl. I was a bit insecure. Long ago, I used to associate being noticed with terrible, terrible things.
But let's face it. I'm a different person now, and if I can be unabashedly honest, I am sort of an assertive young woman by nature. (Not brash....just....assertive.) My name now stands up and gets noticed, and it fits someone who carries herself like I do.
I think for a while after assuming my new name, it was a hard thing to get used to. I was more comfy with just my middle name, and I found myself affectionately shortening it to "Cassi". I think I just had to take a while to grow into my name, but every day I find myself loving my name more and more. The full one, I mean. I love it.
I'll still probably just have my professors and whoever refer to me as Cassandra, though, especially if it's people that want to call me just "Amanda". I'd rather go by Cassandra in that case. It's probably simpler that way.
